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1. |
Work & Drugs
04:14
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It seems I'm only happy when I'm high
drugs are my chemical lullaby
but if I do them I will die
yeah I'm always looking for one to try
Cus' when I'm sober I always cry
Because my thoughts invade my mind
I feel like I'm running out of time
I feel myself just slipping behind
Maybe I should smoke 'till my lungs collapse
let the drugs fuck my ass 'till I prolapse
I hate myself and this whole world
I want to drink 'till I fucking hurl
This fucking job drives me insane!
I couldn't handle the mental pain
It nearly drove me to suicide
Everyday I'd come home and cry
and smoke weed 'till my fucking eyes bleed
My whole life was work and drugs!
Why did my mother give birth?
In a world so screwed and shitty?
Will there even be a future?
for me to see, by 2050?
I might destroy myself by then
Gone, are all the seraphem
My addictions where spawned from this
Shitty, broken, capitalist
system I'm a slave to
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2. |
The System
05:24
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The goal of the system is to brainwash you
I speak from experience I was brainwashed too
I used to believe that our country was the best
I used to believe everything from the press
Thought nothing 'bout pledging allegiance
To our flag praising alleged achievements
Blind to our worldwide imperialism
Driving stakes, creating schisms
All the people we exploit in far off lands
Their blood is dripping down from all our hands
It took me far too long to understand
That no one should be proud to be Americans
Because this system exploits the population
By overworking us with scant compensation
Meaningless job just breaks you down
Conformity forced, hope divorced
I used to think I was right
Believing in the system
But now, I see I was wrong
Now I see how it's flawed
The system is something that should be smashed
like a car in a high speed crash
I believe in a world ruled by the people
Not the state, this government is fucking evil
If you fuck around, then you'll find out
The system finds you, blows your mind out
so monolithic, too big too fail
this whole motherfucking world's for sale
Slaughtering millions to save a buck, yeah
thanks to them the future's fucked
there is no living wage, we all just die enraged
Cuz' we wasted our whole lives, slaving
Paving the way for the system to grow
if you stand in it's way to the grave you will go
like the slaves and natives who died before
in the the name of alleged progress, we're just whores
To this capitalist state, that consummates
a system designed to decimate
anything foreign, it's money they're scorin'!
rights, freedom, life deemed not important!
I used to think I was right
Believing in the system
But now, I see I was wrong
Now I see how it's flawed
The system is something that should be smashed
like a car in a high speed crash
I believe in a world ruled by the people
Not the state, this government is fucking evil
If you need proof look at the problems ignored
the violence, corruption and oil warlords
The ones who uphold the status quo
yes it is them we should overthrow!
Because capitalism can only exist if there's
people suffering who cannot resist
millions slumbering in ignorant bliss
huffing fumes from the government's piss!
...it makes us feel so out of place...
...like aliens from outer space...
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A shitty outlook they can't outgrow
Fear and hate, a killer combo
Blood and soil is their motto
Might makes right, death follows
They wanna take us back to the 50's
the macho men, the whole lot of them
they want the strong to rule the weak
they lie and steal whatever they seek
Through bloodshed, through war
power hungry carnivores
weakness viewed as a sign of defeat
their emotions they try to delete
They say equality is a cancer
they say their lifestyle is the answer
Drinking eggs and eating raw meat
They call us untermensch and think they're elite!
They like to target lonely men
Their insecurities exploited
Their minds molded like clay
The pipeline's opened for them today
Misogynistic, and regressive
Chauvinistic, and aggressive
They flex their riches while smoking cigars
they want their women to love their fast cars
they want to rule through tyranny
their ideas spread through conspiracy
This brawn over brain barbarity
Is rising in popularity
They'll kill you if you don't fit in their mold
their cold hearts, black as coal
A bunch of grifters
pushing the red pill
these men with their ill will
their worldview will kill
Death, distrust, dissension
are all fascist intentions
propagated by the alpha males
obsessed with myths and folktales
From some imagined past
their hatred burns steadfast
Anti-science, anti-fact
they love violence, watch your back!
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4. |
Period.
04:00
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Caustic government got no repentance
my clauses independent, they a run on sentence
put and end to their shit like a period
We aughtta' hurt those bitches like a period
Make these bitches bleed like a period
stop it mothafuckas! Menopause!
Fuck the SCOTUS and their fucked up laws
I auightta' come and break their jaws
Clarence Thomas and his copy of Mein Kampf
more toxic than La Porte Duponte
They better stop they can suck my cock
Pop 'em in the head with a lock in a sock
Watch their ass drop to the cold sidewalk
and hope they fall on a big sharp rock
we're going backwards. we're losing rights
we won't get 'em back unless we fight
This broken system this broken world
we aughtta' fix 'em, all the boys and girls
And in-betweens, that includes me
they're piles of dirt, We're Mr. Clean
They don't give a shit about the kids
that's just a cover so they can get rid
of queers like me, that they all hate
our right to live, they want to take
Our wallets they bleed, to fuel their greed
revolution's the thing we need cuz'
they've gone rogue, stepped outta' line
they wanna gun us down like Columbine
John Lennon shit I'm gettin' shot in the face
He should've imagined a world without 38's
They'll put me on a train to Treblinka-hassee
Kill us anyhow in Austin-berkinau
Or perhaps I'll go to Corpus Christi
that's where they'll make queer corpses crispy
in their ovens we're cooked by dozens
people you know, parents friends and cousins
Call 'em what they are a bunch of Nazi's
yeah their agendas we gotta' stop these
before they kill the lot of us
Yeah I'm radical like Tony Hawk
Like Tony the Tiger I'm fucking great
I'm a "serial" killer I'm fuckin irate
I murder the beat with a mic and some bass
and put those bitches right in their place!
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5. |
Just a Part of Me
10:00
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I've always felt out of place
like an alien from outer space
It seems I know enough
To know I don't know enough
Too many clouds in my head
raining down on me it spreads
I can't escape my flashbacks
they're stabbing me like thumbtacks
Drowning me silently
feelings trapped inside of me
in the prison of my mind
charged with an unknown crime
I'm disassociating
I'm feeling overwhelmed
I need a silent escape
I need a loving embrace
So common yet so misunderstood
some folks avoid it like a bad neighborhood
Misrepresented in the media
some people treat it like leukemia
As if it's a life ending disease or
pestilent like silk worms on a tree
All these things, I fucking hate
These lies, my life, they complicate
Across their heads are empty voids
black as night this just annoys
Young and naive I was their toy
My social skills, fucking destroyed
Sometimes it helps, sometimes it hurts
partly a blessing, partly a curse
feelings bottled up like mace in a purse
sweat soaking skin, brain burns within
Vomit from anxiety, a meltdown
heart exploding from the harsh sounds
I can't control it try as a might
a tear tsunami blurs my sight
Constantly reminded of my limitations
I struggle to conform to expectations
Most people just don't get it
and I don't think they ever will
The words I need, elude me
I'm socially secluding
I can't form the sentence 'till hours later
to get by I've become an imitator
I have to mimic behavior, my rage pent
this makes me feel like a replicant
faking normality with my nervous mentality
is very tiresome, a painful duality
Sometimes it helps, sometimes it hurts
partly a blessing, partly a curse
feelings bottled up like mace in a purse
sweat soaking skin, brain burns within
Vomit from anxiety, a meltdown
heart exploding from the harsh sounds
I can't control it try as a might
a tear tsunami blurs my sight
The world's just passing me by
Can't keep up no matter how hard I try
sometimes I wonder where I would be
If I had nothing wrong mentally
Where would I be working?
Would I still be hurting?
Or am I better off, just as I am?
God please answer, if you can
Despite all that I've been through
I couldn't imagine life without it
all the painful memories
all of them are behind me
I still will struggle everyday
But I'll try to make it through some way
Break things into smaller steps
to simplify things complex
So what if I don't fit in?
Why should I hide the person within?
This is just a part of me
live every organ in my body
This is just a part of me
Like every organ in my body
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6. |
Music is My Life
06:38
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The managers make you get face tats
to make you stand out in cyberspace ads
An outfits given that you have to wear
they make you change the style of your hair
A personality's grafted on
One that's made to keep the cameras on
Your life is fake and you see your mistake
your bound by contracts it's too late
This job and lifestyle you've grown to hate
it quickly degrades your mental state
Start doing drugs to numb the pain
lean, xanax, liquor and cocaine
Your life is spiraling out of control
the stress and drugs all take their toll
you grab a gun and press it to your skull
pull the trigger and release your soul
The rich executives can all go to hell
They steal your royalties and keep it for themselves
They get you to sign after one hit single
so they can use it in corporate jingles
Then drop your ass cus' they got what they wanted
your hard earned money, your dreams squandered
Here in the underground I'm safe and sound
I don't care if I'm never found
Music's my life it gives me peace
making it a job would destroy me
Cus' then it wouldn't be fun anymore
my art would suffer it's quality poor
all the drama stress and tight deadlines
would take my creativity offline
I make music that goes hardcore
they want music for department stores
and by "they" I mean the record labels
Creative freedom they disable
the lyrics written by men in suits
if you don't sing 'em you'll get the boot
with shitty deals that ruin your career
a shitty system I refuse to adhere
You really think I give a fuck about fame?
It would melt me down like acid rain
people can't handle that many eyes
that's why celebrities go crazy sometimes!
Their every thought judged by people online
Their privacy invaded like a frontline
assemblage of media soldiers
Your life and issues they can't understand
Music's the one thing that I got
If I lose it my mind will rot
I don't care that it's not mainstream
I'm just rockin' here doing my thing
It distracts me from my troubles
it helps me overcome all my struggles
my anxiety killing machine
My electronic boredom vaccine
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7. |
Mirror Vision
04:31
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In an early morning hour
After I step out the shower
I take a look in the mirror
and squint my eyes, to see clearer
And I hate what I see
My appearance bothers me
I think I look ugly
Like a piece of roadside debris
God said he made us perfect
but I disagree
the image in my mind
Of what I should be
Just does not align
with reality
My true self is trapped
in this chrysalis that I must crack!
It's something I must fix
cus' it's making me sick
it feels like I'm living a lie
and that thought makes me want to cry
And if I where to go bald
I would choose to end it all
My body makes me feel out of place
like an alien from outer space
Is that really my reflection?
Staring back at me?
All I see are imperfections
Anxiety this just feeds
God said he made us perfect
but I disagree
the image in my mind
Of what I should be
Just does not align
with reality
My true self is trapped
in this chrysalis that I must crack!
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Self hatred I used to wallow
Lied to by the pill I swallowed
I used to hide who i was on the inside
I had these feelings that I couldn't define
I tried to kick them out of my mind
Felt miserable and angry all the time
Had to admit I was wrong to myself
It need to do it for my mental health
It was a mold that I had to break out
I found the truth and I gotta' speak out
This is who I am, nothing wrong with that
If what I wear gives you a heart attack
then call an ambulance I'll turn my back
That's just my stance I don't give a crap!
If it's a crime to be me, I'm a criminal
I'm only making my life more livable!
It took me years to understand
It took me years to comprehend
Denial never made the feelings go away
they only grew like weeds in a driveway
So glad I understand
so glad I comprehend
it was weighing on my mind a lot
I refuse to be something I'm not
I accept myself I'm no longer scared
tired of hiding I no longer care
I felt this way since childhood
I was told I didn't behave as I should
It felt like I was playing an act
I'm happier than ever now no going back!
This is who I am, nothing wrong with that
If what I wear gives you a heart attack
Then call an ambulance I'll turn my back
That's just my stance I don't give a crap
If it's a crime to be me, I'm a criminal
I'm only making my life more livable
Nothing will make me disappear
I belong here just as much as you!
This is who I am, nothing wrong with that
If what I wear gives you a heart attack
Then call an ambulance I'll turn my back
That's just my stance I don't give a crap
If it's a crime to be me, I'm a criminal
I'm only making my life more livable
Nothing will make me disappear
I belong here just as much as you!
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10. |
Eradicated
04:44
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There are skinheads
in the government
who wanna kill us cus'
we're gender divergent
Our existence is
under threat
danger surrounds us
like a vignette
One day a vigilante
might grab his gun
shoot me in the head
drop me dead
For being who I am
they fail to understand
identity is something
that can't be banned
Anyone who says it's a choice
is just fucking wrong
why would I choose
to live in fear?
Don't you know that
it's dangerous here?
dangerous for me and
all of my peers
Just because we where
born this way
shouldn't mean that
we have to obey
your bullshit laws
that obfuscate
your intentions
to dominate
The GOP's trynna'
make it impossible
for us to survive
and live our lives
Through legislative
genocide
they drive us to commit
suicide
By making life
inhospitable
with laws so vague
they're applicable
to any situation
anyone, anytime
Even you could be arrested
for the crime
of being queer in
a public space
this demographic
they want to erase
SHUT THE FUCK UP
YOU FUCKING BACKWARDS REPROBATE!
Always looking for
groups to persecute
by spreading lies
so easy to refute
Their hateful schlock
inspires some incel
to fire his Glock and
blast us to hell!
For wearing clothes that
they don't like
while walking downtown
late at night
We're trapped living
in a fascist nation
it has been this way
since it's creation
That's why we have to
keep on fighting
the propaganda pushed
by the right wing
Half the motherfuckers
pushing these laws are
queer themselves but they
keep it a secret!
History doesn't repeat
it just rhymes
and this isn't
the first time
That's there been a
moral panic here
that minorities have been
suppressed through fear
Cus' it's rules for
thee and not for me
in this alleged
democracy
The land of the free
this is not
It's the land of
bigotry and brainrot
This is a genocide!
This is a genocide!
THIS IS A GENOCIDE!!!
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11. |
1,000 Days
07:16
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Our love is something
we don't regret
Our love is something
we won't forget
all those cherished
memories
forever a part of
our history
All of them mean
world to me
Much like you
my life buddy
my first
true love
sent down from
heaven above
The world has changed
since we've first met
our hopes and dreams snubbed
like a cigarette
Where will we be in
a thousand days?
Where will be in
a thousand more?
our lives are going
in different ways
it's just a fact that
we can't ignore
I still love you
forever and always
and If you come back
I'll open the door
just another
chapter written
in the book
of my life
I still recount
that fateful night
so painful yet
necessary
the truth's a burden
we're forced to carry
and the truth is that
the future's scary
I watched this beautiful
thing we had just die
I watched it hurt you as
much as it did I
An empty void
so hard to fill
will I love again?
Not sure I will
Gone for good like a
stranger on a train
all in vain like
tears in rain
The world has changed
since we've first met
our hopes and dreams snubbed
like a cigarette
Where will we be in
a thousand days?
Where will be in
a thousand more?
our lives are going
in different ways
it's just a fact that
we can't ignore
I still love you
forever and always
and If you come back
I'll open the door
you made me feel
like a part of
this place,
for a time
no longer alien,
your love made me
feel human,
for a time
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12. |
Paranoid
03:16
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Finished with my lover cus' they
couldn't help me with my mind
people think I'm insane because
I am frowning all the time
All day long I think of things but
nothing seems to satisfy
Think I'll lose my mind if I don't
find something to pacify
Can you help me?
Occupy my brain?
OH YEAAHHHHHHH!!!!!
I need someone to show me the
things in life that I can't find
I can't see the things that make true
happiness I must be blind
Make a joke and I will sigh and
you will laugh and I will cry
Happiness I cannot feel and
love to me is so unreal
And so as you hear these words
I'm telling you now of my state
I tell you to enjoy life
I wish I could but it's just too late!
IT'S TOO FUCKING LATE!!!
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13. |
Cancermancer
♧ My name is Callous Alice ♧
American Electro-Industrial artist
I make hoe scaring music
he/she/they
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